I got my insurance license last November and have been able to stay home and work from my new "little" office. It is hard to put in the time I need with 3 little kids running around and a husband who works his toosh off to take care of us. So I haven't gotten "rich" yet but it helps. Noelle told me the other day that "Mom, we are rich! We are rich in love"! She is absolutely right! We are sooooo rich in love!! I have seen so many people around me suffer with true pain and true hurt and it really puts things into perspective! So it's a struggle to pay the bills and I am so tired from kids, work, and pregnancy but at least we have each other and even more so at least we have the gospel!!
This Sunday is Easter! Bunnies, candy, spring toys, dresses, Dye, eggs, baskets, chocolate! Isn't that what it is all about? Not so! It is hard not to get caught up in the worlds definition of Easter. I however am very thankful for my Savior, Jesus Christ! He saves me every day! He is the comforter and I know he and our Heavenly Father love us all so much! I am so thankful for his atonement! He is real, he is true, and he is what this world is all about! I pray I can teach my children this truth and teach them of his love! I see so many kids who don't know this and it makes me so sad! How hard life is when he is not in your life! I know, I have been there before! I want my kids to have this knowledge as I send them out into this yucky, dirty, beautiful, special world!
Noelle asked me a question today that tugged a little and made my eyes moist! She said "Mom, don't you miss your Daddy?" Oh sweet Noelle, of course I miss him! I also miss a lot of things that are no more! I miss smelling lilacs in my moms kitchen! I miss the magic and innocence of childhood! I miss the smell of diesel and certs!! I miss going to Grandmas and Grandpa's and playing Tarzan with Ruby, Cheryl, and Kurtis.I miss my sweet smelling mom singing "how much is that doggie in the window" when I was sick. I miss trolling around the neighborhood with Natalie! I miss ice cream cones at Grandma Bridges house! I miss when Grandpa Phil would flood the field behind our house and we would go wading around with the sheep turds and thistles! I miss how simple things were in "hickville"! I miss sugar mums, rice pudding, root beer and the smell of coffee! I miss peppermint and butterscotch candies and those damn green lamps that Grandma Nield would never let us touch! Oh and I miss her too!
Wow the memories are flooding in!! I miss my Dad!
I love my life! I love my husband! He makes me laugh! I love my kids! They make me laugh too!!
